I'm missing out on.... everything!

So I just received a text from a very good friend. She's at a company event and thinks she sees another one of my good friends. After a series of texts, low and behold, it's her!!!! This is a series of the emotions I felt in that moment:

excitement... 

anticipation of the possibilites...

and then...... 

All gifs are from tenor.com

Yeeeeaaaahhhh.......

But I'm an adult. And I can handle this, right? (I took several moments to wipe my tears.... and my mouth after eating a Krispy Kream donut. When did I become an emotional eater? I will deal with that issue later!!!!)

So my adult self needs to deal with this.

"Self," I said. "What is the problem? These are your two favorite people in our (insert company here) world. It's amazing that they get together and become friends!"

And then, my self answered me. "SELF!!!!! THEY WILL LEAVE YOU BEHIND!!!! THEY WILL BECOME FRIENDS AND NOT NEED YOU ANYMORE!!!!! YOU'VE BEEN HYPING THEM UP TO EACH OTHER FOR YEARS. YOU BEING ON THE PACIFIC OCEAN HAS CEMENTED YOUR FATE OF BEING ALONE AND FORGOTTEN!!!!!"

Now, to be honest, I hate yelling. I'll chastise myself later for that. But seriously? What type of junior high school thinking is that?

One side effect to moving across the country is missing out. My son is dating this amazing girl. I'm not there. My daughter is missing me. I'm not there. My best friend is going through it!!! I'm not there. My family and friends are living their lives without me and there is nothing I can do about it. I'm missing out on all the important (and not so important) events in my old life while having a really hard time integrating into the new one.

I won't try to wrap this post up into a nice little package. I leave it like this....

I don't know what to do....

Until next time.
Cherise

Cheers!!!! To new beginnings and better ones.......

  

The last time I posted (my own content) was October 2015. So it's fitting that I begin again in October.













First, let's address the elephant in the room.... Or To address the mouse in the house. (Mice are much more subtle than elephants, although more terrifying to some.) :-)

It's been a roller coaster for the last year. My mother in law had emergency major back surgery. My mother passed away the day before my wedding anniversary. My daughter got married 8 days after my mother passed. We moved from the Atlantic Ocean to the Pacific, leaving two of my children behind, along with my widowed father, my siblings and the life I've always known.

I read once that, out of largest major life changes, I'm just missing divorce and a new birth (both or which will not be happening)!

Ive always been told that, if you fall seven times, get up eight. Please view this as time number eight. I can't wait to connect with all of you again.

Cherise

Please note: I want to give credit to those who posted the images but I don't have their info!