Suffering a loss- march 20th

Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it. - Helen Keller

I hate this. I don't want to do this. But I realized that there may be someone who can benefit from this, maybe.

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Have you ever felt pain in such a way that if felt like your heart was ripped from your chest? And as you watch it happen, you're grasping for air, confused, bewildered and yet, can't turn away?

That is just the tip of the iceberg. There are so many deep conflicting emotions underneath the surface that right now, I just can't face. I've cried, screamed. I was angry and disappointed. But at times, I was also relieved. Then, guilty. I don't know. It's all a maze of sticky emotions that entangle your heart and brain in such a way that it feels that your drowning in all of it.

I had miscarriage.

There, I said it. The crazy part about all of this is this: This is my 6th one. You would think that it would be easier. But in actuality, to think that I should have 6 more children walking the earth right now.... there are no comforting words.

But for those who experience such a tragedy, start here:

THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!

Read that statement as often as you need. Talk to someone: your spouse, family, a doctor, therapist. Go to a support group. Call a hotline. Write it down in a journal or blog. Cry, yell, draw, cook or clean. Do whatever you need to do to grieve. And know that there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Just your way.

I hope this helps in some small way.

Cherise